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Still in England and just came back from a walk with the Dog of the house owner, where I am now. The dog´s name is Osca and he reminded me of Bärli, my dog I lost on the 8th of november 07. I still miss him a lot and there is no single day I don´t think of him. He died in the age of 2,5 years. So only 2 years were given to us to spend together. But these two years have been two of the best years in my life…

Bärli and me found eachother in october 2005, right before I moved in a massive house I restored, with a huge garden around it, and because I have always been a dog´s person, i decided that I really would love to have him around me.

Everything started perfectly with us and we had a lot of fun together on our long walks through deepest, darkest Bavaria, how some of my friends call the area around my house. Bärli and me went to a “dog school” to make sure he learns how he has to act. Finally it was more me learning how I have to teach him things and how I have to react in different situations. So the year 2005 went bye and 2006 started. Everything was fine until April 06. That was when Bärli became 1 year old. And when he had his first seizure. We found out that it has been an epileptic seizure and we also started to try to find out, where it came from.

Unfortunately he has had idiopathic epilepsy, so the only chance we had, was to try to find the right mixture of medication to keep those seizures away from him. For one and a half year we did very well, but on November the 8th the day has come, when we couldn´t do anything for him. Believe me: It was the hardest decision in my life. But I always have promised him and myself, that I won´t let him suffer for any selfish reasons. So I did let him go. But I also took him home and gave him a place to rest at my side. His most favourite place in the garden, where he always used to sit. 

I do have a wish and this wish is:
“If your best friend has to go or has to leave you, never leave him alone for his last journey. Stay with him even if it breaks your heart! You owe that to him, because he has always been there for you, when you needed someone!” Think about it!

Three weeks ago my vetenary gave me a call and told me that he knows a little doggie who really needs a loving, treasured new home and asked me if I am intersted in. So a lot of thoughts came up in my mind: “Is it to early after Bärli´s death? Will I be able to love a new dog how he earns it?…” etc.
I decided to follow my heart - after a long conversation with Bärli - and………here we are! Yukon found a new home and I found a new friend. And that doesn´t mean, that I don´t miss Bärli every single day in my life. I do!!! And hopefully that won´t change, because that keeps the memories of him alive.